Thursday, September 9, 2010

New Beginnings

I have been wanting to get back to my blog for a while now, but life keeps interfering! Many changes have happened this summer; I am almost afraid to share them for fear they will disappear. I have met someone kind and honest. He has been here all along, I guess just kind of waiting for me to stop chasing my tail. He has been hurt deeply in the past as I have so he gets my fears. We are just friends for now, but we get closer each day. He rides and he has made me into a better and stronger rider. He is encouraging to me; I told him one day recently that he gave me back my wings. He took the broken bits and made them whole. He makes me laugh and creates joy in my heart and soul. He is also a man that loves God. He never misses church and is not afraid to share his faith with others.

I asked God for someone like this and He answered me. I am amazed! I am enjoying the relationship we are building. I don't have any plans, but I am letting God lead me on. We have challenges in our lives, I am still married in name only, because of the insurance and financial issues; and he has been unemployed for a while, but he finds things to do to keep everything running well. Even with these issues, I feel better than ever and very optimistic for the future.

We rode in ( my first) a charity bike ride for kids; a teddy bear run to a local hospital. I tell you, in all my life, I have never felt so happy and good, riding next to my new best friend; in the warm sun. The night ended at the Pig Gig ; a local event with barbecue and music! We wound up with free VIP seats in the front row for 5 concerts that night. We rode home in the dark; a first for me really. But I felt safe; and happy!

Then last week, we went to a music event at a local biker bar; for the first time in 20 something years; I danced a slow dance with a man! We danced all night:) We also drank Diet Coke all night:) And I was flying high on my wings that night. The difference is that this is a solid feeling; a feeling of stability. The last relationship was all wild and intense and short. And left me with holes in my heart and soul.

I also got my dream job this summer; I work every Sunday at the Viking Dealer inside JoAnn's in Saginaw ,MI. I love it; its only minimum wage plus commission, and generally 8 hours per week, but it is the best!! My boss is like my twin; she is the coolest gal; I am so glad I met her!! I get to be creative and use all the machines and help others find their dream machine. I hope that as time goes on, I will get more hours, but for now this is good. Hey who else gets paid to sew? LOL!

I still have such great friends that keep my head up; and for all these blessings I am grateful. My heart is healing well and I am looking forward to where the journey takes me next. It doesn't matter where you go, it's who's beside you that counts; Life is not a destination but a journey. ( stitchery I saw today!)

So I am here; I am finding my joy and hoping that all who hurt find theirs as well. Love you all my friends!


9 comments:

Leann said...

You sound so happy!!

Here's another quote. "Life is not about the breaths you take but the moments that take your breath away"

Nezzy said...

Woohoo, stand back and give me some room. I'm doin' a big old happy dance for you. I'm simply thrilled that your found your wings and are flyin' high. God is good and he always answers, in His time. Enjoy the blessings and I pray life is good for you. You sound fantastic!

God bless ya and have a great day!!!

Holly Hills Primitives said...

Oh Merry - GOOD FOR YOU!!! So glad you've found a new friend and are enjoying life again. Have a great weekend, Dawn

Farmchick said...

I am so glad that you are finding happiness!! Good for you!! :) Come say hi....

Linda ★ Parker's Paradise said...

"Seize the Day"
Grab every good moment and cherish it.
I love to hear the smiling and light heart in your words! You are indeed blessed.
I am happy for you.
★Linda★

cynthialeedesigns said...

Oh Merrie,
I'm so happy for you!! I can hear your joy in the words that you write!!
Love the new job that you have! Not sure if I ever mentioned it, but I used to work in a quilt shop and we sold sewing machines too. We sold Pfaff machines, but now they also sell Vikings. I loved that job, but we moved to where we live now and it was just too far away to drive there.
Wishing you lots more joy and happiness!!
~Cindy~

Diane said...

Looks like things are going your way, good luck Merrie, you deserve it

Shanda said...

So happy to hear happiness radiate from every word you just wrote. I even got alittle misty eyed. So happy for your happiness. Congrats on the awesome job, sounds fun.

carolyn@simple~primitive~devotion said...

Hi Merrie!

I'm so happy for you! You deserve to be happy! Enjoy it and like you said, let God lead you.

Take care of yourself!

~Carolyn


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